Emotional attachments

I am addicted to Starbucks blueberry scones. This isn't news to me, I am well aware. However, for the past 2 weeks I haven't been eating them, or much of anything else, due to a lot of gall bladder inflammation (read PAIN). But today I had one anyway, even though surgery is only a few days away. Surely I could say no to a scone for a few more days. But I could not say no, which led to the realization that I am emotionally attached to these scones. How does that even happen?

I think I've probably been forming these attachments most of my life. But as I think about it at this moment, when the simple fact is eating this thing could cause great pain, I am really confused as to how we get attached, emotionally, to food. I don't get attached to rocks or household objects. Why do I form these attachments to foods? How do I break them? What need are they meeting that I'm not aware of?

Waking Up

So, today my dilemna is how to wake up in the mornings. This used to come naturally at one point in my life, but now it is a 4 hour battle. First off, I know I should go to bed earlier. But let's just imagine that at this juncture in time, with my husband working till 11 pm every night and major painting and vinyl-ing and housecleaning projects ongoing as we face the crunch of trying to sell our house ASAP, going to bed early isn't plausible. Regardless of when sleep phase is entered - it needs to be exited at 7 am. Kids can't get themselves off to school yet. Now I have been known to go back to bed and sleep until 11 am. But this takes a big chunk out of my potential productivity for the day. The problem is, after the kids go to school, I am still half asleep.

And I just lost the entire next paragraph due to finger malfunction. End of story - I'm so tired I ache and the need to sit (inevitably leading to sleep) is stronger than my conviction that I must work. So I'm looking for a way to trick myself into feeling more awake. Like I used to when I had to go to work. I just tripped and landed in the shower and instinct took over and by the time I was done - Voila! I was awake! But try convincing yourself to get up 15 minutes earlier to shower first thing when you don't have any time pressure in the morning. Maybe I should reward myself for waking up and showering before the girls are up. That actually sounds intriguing.