Feelings

I have them! It's amazing!

A little context: Diagnosed a couple years ago with Bipolar Disorder. Had a variety of medications to manage this. Have recently reduced a couple of these medications and am now finding myself feeling all kinds of things - like joy and inspiration, and mischievousness, and adventurousness, and hope! I am a little worried about the possibility of this being a prolonged manic state. And I am ticked that I can't just be happy without worrying that me being happy equals crazy. But I've decided to enjoy feeling things again and hope that the feelings are a good sign for me and the future. I have read that the drugs I was on can be very numbing, so I hope I am simply shedding this mantle of numbness and reconnecting with the emotional side of myself.

Love

"What if my greatest disappointments,
and the aching of this life,
are a revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy?"
Laura Story, Blessings

I want to be loved in that place where I feel unlovable. In that place where people in my life have failed to see past my sin and weakness and ugliness to the beauty God created uniquely within me.

Lord, let Your Love sink down and saturate every depth of my heart, so that I can say with all my intellect, will, and passion that You are what people need; You are the One we need to follow, to seek after with every piece of our broken hearts until we know we are created and loved, redeemable and redeemed.